Hate...(Kuroko x reader)

Since you were a child, you hated yourself, your looks and personality, just all! People sometimes said you were beautiful, because they saw your sad expression, you didn't want to hear that! You hated it, of course, any other person would have been pleased, but not you. Why do you hate yourself so much? Because you had a bad personality, you only hurted your friends and to not loose them, you always had to lie. It wasn't easy, you hated your personality! Your looks, you thought you were ugly, messy hair, tired eyes, because of staying up late at night, maybe even a bit overweight, normal boobs, small fingers etc.....you hated all parts of your body. You hated skirts or dresses, never in your life you would wear them! You mostly wore comfortable clothing, not like some other peoples, like the queen of your school. She always wore too much make-up and extravagant clothes. You didn't understand how she could be the queen, but compared to you....by the way, you attend Teiko Middle school. Yes the famous school! But you were like a nobody, with average grades, only sometimes you were the best in class, and at sports you sucked. You hated it, can't you just say you hate nearly all!? Thank god, you weren't bullied by others, maybe that was because of your friends? If they were sick or just weren't there, you would be alone and helpless, starring at random things and thinking. You hadn't a hobby, but you had a dream, seeing the whole world, somehow stupid, isn't it? You were so interested in other cultures and languages! Anyways, if you had to make a decision, let's say it was difficult for you. It took you 3 weeks to decide to which school you wanted to go, but it wasn't really your own decision. Your parents helped you a lot, saying, Teiko would be the best school you could go and blablabla....and now you were here, at Teiko, your second year already.

"Hey, [Name]-chan?", one of your friends asked, waving a hand in front of your face.

"Oh.....sorry, I kinda of spaced out...", you finally answered her.

She sighed. "No wonder you are a nobody....", she whispered.

You gazed to the ground. "A nobody, huh? Better a nobody than......somebody, who is popular and can't have time for himself, I guess? I even hate me....", you thought.

"Uhhh!!! I didn't mean to make you sad....it's just that-", she panicked, but then you interrupted her.

"It's alright, you just said the truth! I know it, it isn't your fault....", you trailed off.

"But really now, you have to change! I believe, you have a terrible life.", she pointed out.

"No, it's okey, except the fact that I hate me.....", you explained.

"Then just stop hating you?", your friend sweat dropped.

"Do you think, it's as easy like that? I ha-", you stopped yourself from saying it again and hold your month shut.

"Is all alright? Why did you stop?", you friend question you concerned.

"No, no, it's alright, I just....um....I know, I have just bit my tongue.", you lied.

You had to do it, or else you would loose a friend again, you wanted to say 'I hate you and your stupid suggestions!'. Wouldn't it be a bit too harsh? But it was the truth.....

"You bit your tongue? I see, anyways, like I said before, you should change!", she exclaimed.

"Are you even listening to me?", you asked her.

She ignored you and continued. "I know, we should cut your hair and....you should begin to wear the school skirt without your trousers, and put make up on! You should join a club and-"

"Please stop! I don't want to! I hate me and it wont change if I change my apperance!", you whined.

"You know something, [Name]-chan?", your friend question you.

You sighed. "What should I know?"

"Sometimes it sounds like you want help or pity yourself and want to escape, be someone else!", she informed you.

You blinked in confusion, did you really sound like that? But....it wasn't like you.....or maybe....? Do you feel lonely? That can't be! That's ridiculous! Since you were a child, you hated yourself like you were some monster! Why should it change now!? You looked everywhere, but not in the eyes of your friend.

"Why-", your friend wanted to say something, but it had ringed, announcing that the lessons are going to begin.

You immediately stood up and ran away in the direction of your class, like wanting to avoid any futher conversation with your friend. Rushing trough the halls and trying to not bump in someone. You looked in front of you, nobody was in the way, perfect! Your class was just over there, you only had to turn around a corner and to the right. There you would be safe for some time, because nobody spoke with you. You ran faster, but were hold up.

Why, nobody was there!? You crashed against a chest and fell to the ground. That can't be!? There was nobody! How, are you hallucinating things!? Yeah, probably you tripped over your own feet or something like that, because you weren't paying attention! But then why!? Why have you felt something, you clearly bumped against something! You risked a glimpse, you gazed up, only to see a bluenette. Was he really there? You didn't saw him when you first looked, before you began to ran faster.

He stretched a hand out for you to take and looked at you blankly. Has he some kind of poker-face? You shrugged it off and took his hand to stand up. As you were on your feet, you wanted to thank the boy, but he wasn't there anymore, you were shocked and looked around.

"Was he a ghost or something like that?", you whispered to yourself jokingly.

"No, I'm not a ghost!", you heard a voice next to you and jumped out of surprise.

The light blue haired male starred you, he was used to these kinds of reactions. You shook your head and rubbed your eyes to be sure, he was really there.

"Oh sorry, but I thought you disapeared?", you asked nervously.

"I didn't. I was here the whole time.", he answered with a monotone voice.

"But...I....how....", you tried to find the right words.

Like the bluenette could read your thoughts he spoke: "It's because of my lack of presence! People often don't notice me!"

"Like....I don't know....you want to say you are....invicible to people?"

"Yes, you can put it in that way!", he told you.

You starred at him in disbelief. You were a nobody, but he was invicible!? What is worser!?

"Do you hate it?", without thinking too much, you asked him that.

He was surprised, nobody asked him this before....

"Not really, that's just me....I can't change it...", he answered.

"How...? How can't you hate it? Tsk. I hate me, i hate all of me, but you are okey with being invicble!? I can't understand!", you shouted, getting atteion from other students.

You couldn't help it, you were angry, you thought, you had found somebody whou could understand you, because he was somehow like you. You rised your hopes up. For the students it looked like you were talking to yourself and began to spread rumors.

"You hate yourself? Why?", the bluenette wanted to know.

"Because I look ugly and have a bad personality!", you screamed.

"A bad personality? I don't think so! You apologized before.", he agured.

"What, only because of that?"

"Yes, any bad person would just laugh at me or would be mad or something like that and punch me....", the blue haired boy explained.

You laughed, you laughed at his stupids suggestions. Why would people actually do that!? or the students you seemed like a weirdo.

"Thank you.", you said and smiled.

"For what?"

"You made me laugh.", you answered. "By the way, I'm [Name] [Last Name].", you introduced yourself.

"Then, nice to meet you. I'm Kuroko Tetsuya..."

"Kuroko-kun? Is it alright if I call you that? You are a intresting person!"

"I don't mind, [Last Name]-san."

"[Last Name]-san? That sounds like I would be way older than you..."

"I'm only being polite."

"Kuroko-kun, just call me by my first name."

"Okey, i you want, then it would be, [Name]-san."

"That sounds better.", you grinned.

You two totally forgot about the lesson, that had begun already. After realizing you looked at each other and immediately ran for your own classes.

"I hope I'll see him again....", you thought.

You were scolded for being late, but nothing more happened and the lesson went by smothly.

The rest of your year, you didn't meet Kuroko again, that disappointed you. And you began your third year. You stood in front of a mirrow, a scissor in your hand. What were you going to do!? You brought the scissor up to your hair and cut it.

"Ahhh!! I really cut it now!", you exclaimed.

You took a strand of your hair in your hands and fixed it.

"Hmm...maybe I should cut it, so it would look good....If I'm already at it....", you whispered.

Like you said, you cut your hair and fixed it, your hair didn't look bad now. You admired your new hairstyle.

"Wait. What am I doing!? I thought I hate me, then why am I admiring myself in the mirrow!?", you shouted.

After you met Kuroko, you had the feeling, you could accept yourself? Anyways it was time for school. To your surprise and pleasure, you were in the same class as him! You were happy! Before you could head to your class, your friends ran up to you and spoke at the same time.

"Are you really [Name]-chan!?"

"Um...yes, I am."

"Hey, hey, you looked diffrent now..."

"You cut your hair!?"

"Now you look more beautiul! I didn't know, you hide it!!!"

"Ehh!? What are you talking about? I didn't change at all.", you said.

"But for us, you changed. No buts!"

"Geez. Can't be helped.", you sighed.

Later you headed to your new class, determined to find Kuroko, he was the one, who caused you to cut your hair. After some time, you saw blue hair! And headed to the light blue mess.

"Kuroko-kun, long time no see!", you greeted him.

"Oh...[Name]-san, hello!", he greeted back. "You cut your hair? It looks good.", he complimented.

And for the first time you blushed when somebody made you a compliment.

"T-thank you...", you played with your fingers.

"You're welcome."

"So....Kuroko-kun....where were you? I mean, last year, I searched for you, but didn't find you.", you began.

"You searched for me? I was most of the time in the gym, because I'm in the basketball club."

"What, you and in the basketball club!? That's amazing! Even with your lack of presence?", you asked him.

"Yes, in truth, that's my weapon, I love basketball a lot, but am only good at passing and so, I can't score a point.", he explained.

"Really? That's interesting! Like I said, you're a interesting person, Kuroko-kun!"

"You think so? But because of me, people thought you were a weird person, [Name]-san."

"Don't worry, it's all cleared now."

"If you say so...."

"Kuroko-kun, we should spend more time together, let's be friends and-", you were interrupted.

"You want to be friends with me? But we only met once!"

"And? It feels like I know you already for years!", you told him.

"Then...if you want."

"Yay, thank you, Kuroko-kun!"

That was the begin of your friendship. You enjoyed the time, you spend with Kuroko and never regretted it one bit! You grew attached to him like with no other person ever. After half of the year, you spoke to him about the hating-yourself-thing.

"You remember? I said I hate me, I still do, but not so extremly anymore..."

"Hmm.....you shouldn't hate yourself, [Name]-san! What's so wrong with you, that you hate yourself."

"I don't know, I just hate all parts of me.", you sighed.

"You really shouldn't! You look good and are nice, what do you want more?", he explained.

You blushed, he thought you look good! >///<

"But, I mean, there are other girls out, and they are much better than me...", you trailed off.

"And? You are the best in your own way."

You blushed even more, you liked Kuroko, but hate yourself? What logic!

"....You really shouldn't hate you, because I like you!", he admitted with a tint of pink on his cheeks.

"Y-you like me!?", you stuttered, blushing even more, if possible.

"yes...", and Kuroko gazed to the ground.

After calming down a bit, you smiled at him. "I think....i think, I don't hate me anymore!"

"See, what can you possibly not like about you, [Name]-chan?"

"-chan!? He isn't so formal anymore!", you thought and began to blush again.

"I like all parts of you.....and I bet, a lot of other people does too!", Kuroko pointed out.

"But I'm happy, I'm happy, because the person I like the most.....l-like me too!!! It's like a dream!"

"Really?", Kuroko looked a bit safe. "That person must be amazing...."

"Didn't he get it? Kuroko-kun, you are the person I like!", you thought to yourself.

"You're right, he is amazing and interesting!"

"Then...you is it, if I can ask, it's just that....I want to be sure, he is a good guy and....", Kuroko began.

"Don't worry, he is a good guy! And I'm happy I met him!"

"I see, then I hope he will protect you and-", you interrupted him.

"Kuroko-kun, the person I like the most is right before my eyes."

Kuroko looked around and saw nobody, he thought a bit and then realized, you meant him!

"[Name]-chan, I'm sorry for not realizing...", Kuroko apologized.

"Why are you apologizing, it kinda of ruined the moment we could have...", you laughed.

"Sorry....."

"Again!"

"So- I mean....I'm happy!"

"Haha, I guess it's alright."

And you became a couple, out of your self-hate became love~

~Fin~
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The End~
I hope you like it^^